Trudging Through the Muck

Persevering through set backs.

This is the theme of my weight loss journey.  I have to remind myself of this.  On Friday, the pedal on my recumbent bike sheared off.  (Thank goodness for this putty like welder; I think I fixed it--- for now).  As a result, I walked outside on Monday.  At dawn, with the birds chirping away.  It was so beautiful. I love walking outside!  Now my foot is, once again, throbbing in pain with plantar fasciitis  But this time, the pain in traveling up to the back of my knee and the front of my hip. Add to this a pinched sciatic nerve on the opposite hip and am unexplained weight gain of 20 pounds... yes, you read that right, 20 more pounds that my body had gotten used to NOT having, and is having to lug around again.

I am frustrated.  I am in pain.

And yet, I am still keeping up on my "200 Good Choices" challenge.  My exercising isn't aerobic. It's been yoga.  And damnit, I deserve every damn marble I am getting.  Because, it is really hard to stay motivated.  To not cave into the craving.  On Sunday, I popped 3 Jelly Belly Beans (all kind of goodness there) in my mouth. I chewed once and stared at My Crush and spit it out.  Oh yeah, I deserved that damn marble.  My Crush likes to call them gems.  I don't care what they are called.  200 of them before June 10th, I get a bike for outside or e-reader.  Maybe a new exercise bike is more in order though after Friday.

But through this all, the pain is making my brain foggy.  Typically, I can feel it getting better.  Not this time.

What I wouldn't give for a heated pool right about now.